to the guy who love my sins..

"you love my sins, and i love your pain."
- september 11, 2016.

i thought it was just going to be a random dramatic quotation from a DJ's song that we both love and we both sway across the city just to watch them.
until the universe made us met in the middle of my hometown city, accidentally.

we did know each other before, long long time ago before we met for the second time.
but i believe that there was this thing in the back of our mind; we thought the universe will never cross us again in another chance.
i thought you are just going to be a person that i'll just remember the face, no, just kidding.
if we didn't met, i'm 100% not going to remember your face, even your detail, or the way you talk.

"see you rave partner!"
our first conversation, ever.
never have i ever thought that our conversation will lasts for 1 year long.
crazy? it is.
one-fucking-year long, insane.
for me.
i'm the type of person who doesn't really love to keep in touch with someone that lives across city with me.
you're lucky.
or is it me?

we both have a pretty much similarity.
like, 2 years ago, we are the leader of a company.
yet you never realized that i was exist back then.
pity me.

we both love our favorite DJ's.
and one song that was suppose to makes us bang our head, but turns out to be our saddest song.
till it hurts?
was the song that we both jumped to together, was the song that i lay my head onto your shoulder, was the song that... makes me remember of you, and makes you remember of me.

crazy how we never met, but open up to everything.
like, there's this feeling, the chemistry, not those love-thingy that makes you go crazy whenever i see your name popping up, no.
i feel this feeling.
more than comfortable.
trust.
i trust you.
crazy?
yes.
we have never met again for a year and i trust you already.

everyone think that we should be a happy couple, they trust us for that.
but no, i don't want to hurt the distance, the ex-girlfriend of yours, and the wallet.
lol.
i'm going to be broke, because i'm the type of person that would visit you if i miss you.

have you ever dreamed about us meeting?
i mean..
do you think 24 hours is enough for us to talk about everything that went crazy between us?
from the moment where i still got a bangs and short hair, until it grows long, and i cut it short?
from the moment where you shave your beard until you grow back your beard again?
from the moment where you suddenly date this girl and made me cry until i accept the reality and feel this comfortable, that we decided to never date each other, but still make the others jealous?

does this sounds cheesy to you?

let's close this with some honest opinion.

do you know that girl love to be called as beautiful, randomly?
i'm a girl.
and i love it.
so, thank you for calling me beautiful and making me sure that i am.

because i know that you're not that type of the guy from the 1st day that i met you. :)

[ ps: oh, don't forget to count down the days, we still have 59 days left to have some phone call ]