reciprocal.

"i don't believe in religion-"

to be honest, that will makes the most interesting conversation, a complex talks, a forgot-to-take-a-sip of the drink kind of talks.

i'm pretty sure for some people, it'll not going to be a good idea. 

for me, a woman who strongly doesn't believe in religion, will giggle and nods my head proudly.

the one who believes that all these kind of things happen because its a reciprocal from what you have done, in your past, that you might kind of forget so you have no idea why it's happening, or you really sure that it comes from somewhere beneath your past. 

and..

i don't even know why this soul is sitting in front of me, wrapped by tan skin and my ideal kinds of man, and the things i love the most is because he doesn't believe in religion.

you're simply turning me on.

you're out of my thoughts. 

never done something in my past to brought you here in front of me. 

or maybe, i forgot..

but seems like,

i don't want to know you, if it's going to break my heart.

i've broke so many hearts in my past.

but i don't understand, 

i never want to bring these people to me.

so, i want to push them away.

that walks like a zombie through me.

looks like they're craving for my soul.

i pushed them away.

but this reciprocal, killing me.

why?

i never want these people, anyway.

i want you.

don't walk backwards. 

don't show me that you're a form of my reciprocal.

yet, you never truly have to be exist in my life.

i

want

you

darling..

should i blame god for this?

but which god should i blame?

we don't believe in religion, anyway.